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It is taking all of my energy at the moment to not just hide myself away from the world. It feels like trying to constantly take a breath but not being able to. I am so behind on EVERYTHING and all I can say is sorry sorry sorry, I am trying so hard to fight through mental issues to actually get work done. No-one feels so bad about you not having your art than I, I promise you. I beat myself up about it on a daily basis. Sorry if this all sounds very whiny but I just want to attempt to explain myself. (wow this is difficult)
I have no money -literally- none, if I did, I'd give everyone a refund and start fresh but I can't so we're stuck with each other til I give you what I owe you. I am also sorry to those whose notes I have seemingly ignored, just seeing the new note icon gives me anxiety and awful guilt and self-hatred so it's like punching through a physical brick wall to read, construct a reply and hit send. (my brain is faulty)
Patreon is another thing...I started it in hopes to alleviate stress but it has made it SO much worse in that I owe art at a deadline and therefore become further and further behind, owing months of artwork when I'm struggling to get through my old commissions. I think I'll have to make some big changes and soon to make me able to cope. I'm going to start with creating a list of commissions and put them in order, a list I can physically see and tick off of instead of imagining a closet about to burst with unhappy clients.
I want to say thank you aswell...I have nightmares where all my commissioners to whom I owe art create hateful journals calling me out as a terrible person and hnnggg it haunts me because I know they'd be completely justified to do so. I am so terrified of upsetting people and I know I'm on the very edge of falling into a fucking black hole, I can never get my balance. When I think I'm actually making progress, something in real life hits me like a brick. On top of all this, I try to keep this stuff inside for the benefit of those close to me when really I wanna lay in bed and cry all day, sleep a bit then wake up and cry some more. BUT NOPE I am not going to let that happen because people are relying on my.
So, my current plan in the next couple of days is this:
-Create an informative list of owed art.
-Tweak my Patreon so that it's more of a donation page and therefore less of a stress factory.
-Finish time-sensitive art (trades, collab pieces etc.)
-Get the fuck to work.
I will publish the list and update it as I go so commissioners can see my progress. Commissions will ONLY be opened once EVERY other piece has been finished (on that day, I will have a drunk stream to celebrate and everyone's invited!)
Trying to make a positive step and I feel better already, I hope you will be willing to work with me a little while longer and I really, really appreciate you, every one of you. <333
Thank you for reading, if you have any advice (ohgodplease) or positive things to say (ineedpositivityohgod) then feel free to PLEASE comment, I read and appreciate every single one. If you want to yell at me...I mean I can't stop you but nyyahhh ;A;
If you read to this point, you obviously really care about me, are bored or wanna "tsk" in disgust at everything I've said and I love you for that.
-tries not to cry-
-Jess
I have no money -literally- none, if I did, I'd give everyone a refund and start fresh but I can't so we're stuck with each other til I give you what I owe you. I am also sorry to those whose notes I have seemingly ignored, just seeing the new note icon gives me anxiety and awful guilt and self-hatred so it's like punching through a physical brick wall to read, construct a reply and hit send. (my brain is faulty)
Patreon is another thing...I started it in hopes to alleviate stress but it has made it SO much worse in that I owe art at a deadline and therefore become further and further behind, owing months of artwork when I'm struggling to get through my old commissions. I think I'll have to make some big changes and soon to make me able to cope. I'm going to start with creating a list of commissions and put them in order, a list I can physically see and tick off of instead of imagining a closet about to burst with unhappy clients.
I want to say thank you aswell...I have nightmares where all my commissioners to whom I owe art create hateful journals calling me out as a terrible person and hnnggg it haunts me because I know they'd be completely justified to do so. I am so terrified of upsetting people and I know I'm on the very edge of falling into a fucking black hole, I can never get my balance. When I think I'm actually making progress, something in real life hits me like a brick. On top of all this, I try to keep this stuff inside for the benefit of those close to me when really I wanna lay in bed and cry all day, sleep a bit then wake up and cry some more. BUT NOPE I am not going to let that happen because people are relying on my.
So, my current plan in the next couple of days is this:
-Create an informative list of owed art.
-Tweak my Patreon so that it's more of a donation page and therefore less of a stress factory.
-Finish time-sensitive art (trades, collab pieces etc.)
-Get the fuck to work.
I will publish the list and update it as I go so commissioners can see my progress. Commissions will ONLY be opened once EVERY other piece has been finished (on that day, I will have a drunk stream to celebrate and everyone's invited!)
Trying to make a positive step and I feel better already, I hope you will be willing to work with me a little while longer and I really, really appreciate you, every one of you. <333
Thank you for reading, if you have any advice (ohgodplease) or positive things to say (ineedpositivityohgod) then feel free to PLEASE comment, I read and appreciate every single one. If you want to yell at me...I mean I can't stop you but nyyahhh ;A;
If you read to this point, you obviously really care about me, are bored or wanna "tsk" in disgust at everything I've said and I love you for that.
-tries not to cry-
-Jess
NEW GUMROAD + CHANCE TO GET FREE ART
🌟 www.gumroad.com/l/xVkTq 🌟
On the 21st of next month I'll put all of the people that bought this £5 image pack into a draw to get a free coloured sketch commission (feral or anthro, any species/pose etc.) So please consider buying this for a chance to get free art!
(Every £5 you spend will get you put in an extra time. e.g: You pay £10, you get put into the draw twice, £15=3 times etc.)
Downloadable image packs + links
Hey guys!
Sorry for my lack of activity on here lately, things have been a little hectic leading up to and after EF (which was amazing btw!!) but I plan to upload more to dA in the future.
I have a few more downloadable image packs available on my Gumroad (SFW & NSFW) which you can check out here: https://gumroad.com/bearlyfeline
Other links:
Twitter: https://twitter.com/BearlyFeline
Tumblr: https://www.tumblr.com/blog/bearlyfeline
Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/bearlyfeline
Any donations via PayPal would be absolutely incredible! ♥
~paypalplz (https://www.deviantart.com/paypalplz) https://www.paypal.me/bearlyfeline
Thanks for your ongoing support and enc
Work plan + Downloadable Art collection!!
OKAY! So some very helpful people suggested I use Trello to keep a public list of commissions. Here it is so far, very basic:
https://trello.com/b/iie6dLtz/commission-list
If you're not on the list and you've paid for a commission, please note me!
I also need money while working on these as the bills dont wait :c so I'm going to be setting up a weekly plan as such:
Mon: Stream comms
Tues: Owed comms
Wed: Stream comms
Thurs: Owed comms
Fri: Stream comms
Sat: Owed comms
Sun: REST
This way I can keep working quickly on older commissions while still earning.
AND...
Thanks to the very helpful ~Ekatii (https://www.deviantart.com/ekatii) I have created a downloadabl
Birthday and shit!
So I'm leaving Denmark tomorrow afternoon, I had such an awesome time with my lovely friends ~TinaLeRawr (https://www.deviantart.com/tinalerawr) :icontimba: and :iconmalin-j:. I had one of the best birthdays ever ;u; it was so lovely and cute xD BUT I'll be back soon which means back to arting! And I'll be arting super hard to make money for Eurofurence in August >8D
thank you so much to those that left me birthday wishes, it means so much to me that people take the time to leave a message like that <333
See you all soon!!
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Well I just stumbled on your page, and I felt like you needed to hear something: YOUR ART IS AWESOME! AND seeing how you care, going trough nightmares and all ;w;, I'm sure you ARE A GREAT PERSON TOO . I'm sure you can do this and after everything will be better! My only advice is : drink something hot and relaxing when you work like herb tea (we call it ''tisane'' in french) , it helps focus more on the work and less on the stress. (I'm so sorry about my bad english btw :'I)